Rarely in my life has God seemed to answer prayers so very literally as He chose to do just a short 48 hours ago.

You see, I am slowly coming to the realization that there are people - real people - who read the words I've been writing. Even though it has been a somewhat-secret dream of mine for a long time to be a "writer" (or maybe more accurately "someone who is read"), I find paranoia springing up in me. Maybe that's not quite the right word.

I feel responsibility rising within me. This, I think, is a good thing. I prayed about it, realizing that I could be putting foolish thoughts or projecting my own misunderstandings into others minds, which is something I don't want to do at all. I prayed one of my all-or-nothing type prayers "Lord God, i am not fit to speak Your Words or on Your Word. Heal my missing pieces or shut me down, i beg you!" 


Fifteen minutes later, my computer was effectively overcome by a nasty virus, refusing to even start.

Welp. Thanks for being clear on that one, God! :)

I spent the next four hours immersed in prayer and running my computer anti-spyware in Safe Mode to eradicate the "System Security 2012" virus.

The virus is gone, but now, it is time to step away from the blogs. When God speaks so loudly, it is nothing but foolishness to hesitate in doing what He is asking you. I will still be posting - mainly book reviews, so I can continue to receive free review copies :) but will be cutting down the time I spend reading and responding and sorting and searching, etc.

I will be running myself in a sort of "Safe Mode" for a while, shutting down unnecessary programs which clog my system and allow all sorts of nasty viruses in, but mainly it's to prevent my own nasty viruses from spreading to others around me. I never want to lead anyone to stumble, but only to edify.

Continue to keep me in your prayers as I try to cling more to Christ, and investigate what He would have me do with my "online presence" and the new free time I have once I stop checking my blog roll every couple hours. ;)

♥ee